Well, after a session of zero communication between me and Anky I think that the realisation has hit me that I am both mentally and physically unable to do this!
I am totally doubting my ability (or lack of ),and, other things aside, I don't think I have enough knowledge.
Anky was neither stroppy, over the top , dangerous today, but I came away thinking that I haven't a bloody clue what I'm doing!
I'm not impatient, it's not only that we've had a bad session, I just wonder if its a real moment of clarity and everything else is just delusion.
Christ, I've just read this back and it sounds pathetic. Well, it's how I feel and I've written it now, so it stays.
My Life, My Horses and My Attempts to Train the Classical Way
4 comments:
Commiserations on your bad day. Who hasn't had a day like that? Those are times that we should be glad to not be teenagers; they don't have the experience to know that we get another shot at it tomorrow.
I suggest some retail-therapy. Shoes work best for me.
p.s. At least you have a horse in your life.
retail therapy is good.
don't be daft, think positive - read your previous post and think positive!
It seems I will have to come over soon Di, if only to *slap* you. You have great ability but are just a little doubting at the moment. We all go through it but the important thing is to get the other side. Chin up girl.
Sorry guys. bit of a wobbly day yesterday!!
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