I had a short session on the yard with Remy, walk on the circle asking for soft, even bend and then shoulder-in on each rein, nice and slow concentrating on each step.. A very short session before I took him out on the track.
I wanted to take him up the track towards the little wood as we've not been up there recently. He was a little jumpy but I expected him to be having a good look around as we've not been up there in a while. The farmer had put up his electric fence at the side of the track and some cows in there which Remy hadn't seen before. He was looking, but he's such a good boy and to be honest, he wasn't worrying me too much it was the bloody electric fence that had got me worried. We got past it and he was on his toes, not too much of a problem, we practised a little sideways and regular halts to keep him thinking and by the time we got through the wood he was much calmer, not completely relaxed but ok.
Coming home he was really on a mission and while I like the forward I don't want the rushing so I sat up and thought slow with my seat, which worked well, it just felt that I had a whole lot of horse underneath me. Coming back towards the fence, the farmer had arrived with tractor and trailer to refill his water troughs, so Remy was looking at that, and to be fair he wanted to march up and investigate, but the bloody fence was just at the side of us and it was freaking me out. I didn't panic, at least I don't think it was panic, but I suddenly felt very nervous about the fact that I was responsible for this young horse and it was up to me to be calm and to give him confidence. I felt old and inadequate. He deserves better, because, he never really gives me a reason to be worried and I was letting him down. A wobble, definitely, and it came out of nowhere and took me by surprise and it's not like he took off with me or anything, which somehow makes it worse and a definite over-reaction on my part.
I've not felt like that in a long time and I'm a bit ashamed of it to be honest and sitting here writing, I think how ridiculous I was to lose my composure like that.
We can't hide these feelings from our horses and Remy knew, but he behaved like a little star. I love my boy!
2 comments:
look at it this way - next time you go that way, you'll know he's fine about all that stuff, so you can then breathe.. i've been singing out loud for that purpose!
Glad it was the tiniestof wobbles!
Until you know toy don't know. It is difficult to keep " yourself" from showing though!
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